Rain Rain Go Away

granted i like the rain, i do. i never did before but once you are out in the desert for almost a week with no shelter, water, etc. ya really like the rain. although i still don't like onions but i did eat them when there wasn't anything else to eat. and since there are other things to eat since i'm not in the desert, i ain't eatin onions lol.

i changed my font in my template so maybe it won't seem like i'm writing so much, which i'm sure it will but OH WELL. hehe. maybe i'll switch to statcounter. the one i use doesn't do anything and now i'm all curious about who's looking.

i do know i have a crapload of stuff to do, and i don't wanna do it. yea i kinda get like this, A LOT LOL. but seeing as i can't go HIKING (well i can but i don't like to hike in thunderstorms!), i best get this other stuff done. i have slides to take of the rest of my photographs for a scholarship portfolio review. ya know, i just feel like it's a waste of time, seeing as i live LIFE and don't have much time for philanthropy, or *being a leader* or volunteering for something. granted, i will when i'm in school, maybe, since i will have to get a part time job at least. but i don't have *mommy and daddy* to rely on, didn't really WHEN i was college-age, so i don't have many extracurricular activities that they want on these scholarship applications. but i must try. i have been trying, but damn pounding out 500 words per application is tough. especially when trying to tell some committee why i don't do the things in the application. "well you see, i have gotten out in the WORKING WORLD when i was 16, and that's all she wrote. i wanted to earn a living, ya know, learn how to survive in this big bad world of ours because i need the money to keep a roof over my head, food on my plate and wheels under my feet. my mommy and daddy didn't give me money. they didn't pay for me to go to school, hell they didn't think of me when they were saving money for something. so, i don't have much to write about except for the fact that i've been struggling to be independent and get a college degree ALL ON MY OWN". etc etc. needless to say, i haven't won a scholarship yet! and i like the things that come in the mail asking for money for information on scholarships or to be "entered" for them. uh i don't think so buddy. anyhoo, there is one for older women that i found that i do qualify for (a lot are either for high schoolers or ya know the young'uns) but i didn't find it in time for the deadline, so, i will be ready for the next one! i just have to come up with a really sappy story LOL.

aw well, i best get on with it. since the drunk's up and about it's time for me to go out LOL