Pimples, Weird Paintings and Shit in General

ya know, zits are not just for teens. i swear to you they aren't. they just keep coming. now granted not every day, but they fuckin show up at the most inopportune times. although this time it's just in general. i usually do make an effort to wash my face and shower and all that shit on a daily basis, if not more. but due to recent events of late, washing my face has taken the back burner and now it's like a fuckin braille menu. and since i'm on a no-budget now (no income = no budget LOL) i can't just go out and get my high-dollar face paraphernalia anymore so i have to do with what i have. o i still have the clinique scrub and some masks, hope they last a little longer for me. i would so love to get a facial, but again, watching the pennies so i won't. i did go for a manicure/pedicure. hey i HAD to do something for myself since not too many will on my birthday!

so i go the this nail salon in the mall, you know, the vietnamese one. wait they are all owned by the vietnamese LOL. unless you go to a day spa. but they do a great job, even the men. i miss my vietnamese lessons with the one back in marietta/dallas (yes there's a dallas georgie) but i'll have to make new friends at this one and learn some bad words lol. no one there, i wonder, because the other one was crowded. but i don't like crowds and i figure maybe it was the location. she did a wonderful job. the massage chair was fantabulous. but i'm sitting there when i have my eyes open, there's a painting on the wall. a weird one. now i love admiring art, and not even Mapplethorpe's photos don't disturb me, nor do van gogh's or even much more controversial work disturbs me as i try to view it all with an open mind. but this painting, was simply ------ WEIRD. i'll try to give you a visual ----- it seems as if you, the viewer, are lookiing outside a balcony window, onto the balcony, which overlooks a city, perhaps in Italy, as there seem to be many buildings knit tightly together, like villas perhaps, and there is what appears to be a man sitting at the table, his back is to you, is wearing a hat. yet the man is basically just a straight figure, like a tree, but not very wide. a woman is standing to the right in front of him a few feet away, at the rail, and she looks like a cigarette, thin, two thin legs, a red dress, yet no head. nope, no head. looks like her head blew off and fell over the balcony. there's no blood, not a blood/gore painting. but she has no head. an almost stick figure, and where her head should be, is a stump, as if her head fell off or blew off and snapped as there's a little bit of excess and wisps. i was looking at it trying to figure out what it was supposed to be. luckily i don't dream easy on things that weird me out, or scare me or whatnot. i am glad i didn't dream about it or having no head or something. lol

the shit in general is that things seem to be ok for now but i can't let my guard down. apparently my sister can change moods in under 5 seconds. so i won't hold my breath. the BF and i had a long discussion, and i'm staying put. he won't accept rent, which i knew. i will do my share around here, although he doesn't seem to care too much about keeping up his house so what little i do or lot will be a bonus for him. i just can only hope my sister gets her shit together. i'll try to be here for her, but it's so draining some days.

did i mention drawing for some reason is just agonizing for me???