My lips glisten with the dew of your kiss...

that's about as much writing i do. not sure where that came from. probably cause i'm going through my makeup and throwing shit out.

anyhow, waiting for the UPS person is like waiting for a stone to pass. well not that i know what THAT'S like, but it's kinda painful. the damn camera broke at the hospital yesterday, and they decide to send ME the new one. ONE i'[m not working today, or shouldn't be, TWO my entrance is in the back of the building so anything that gets overnighted ends up on my landlady's doorstep. but luckily she was home and directed them back here. i just can't stand waiting.....

like waiting for my roomie to get out. i thought i wanted a roommate and figured out real quick i don't. i like my space. i like living alone as i haven't before (always had roomies). granted, i am going to be hurting for money unless i get my loan for the summer so i had to take a class. but that's fine. i can't go far anyway because no one seems to want to cover my days. which irritates the fuck outta me. i emailed a couple of the girls THREE Times. they could at LEAST respond by saying no. yea i'm feelin bitchy. i'm tired of saying i'm sorry for that. she hasn't even looked when i asked her what she is going to do now that the month is over. i was kinda pissed. she had 30 freakin days to freakin look. so am i supposed to just say "get out"? i don't know. i so hate dealing with this shit. live and learn right? yea well i seem to learn a hell of a lot.

oh, all week long the people downstairs don't work on the bathroom. when do they do it? SATURDAY. MY DAY OFF. least they didn't start at 7fuckinA.M.

finals are over. thank goodness.

yay i get my new high dollar eyeglasses. i changed em out since i do get 30 days. i also changed out my sunglasses. i decided to take a break from contacts because my eyes were getting so dry. so far i haven't had dry eyes since wearing glasses again. i hope to get that lasik or some version thereof surgery for my eyes. but that's not going to happen for quite some time.....

i'm getting a massage. i think it's from a male. i never had a male masseuse before. or whatever you call them. not that it's planned that way, but they have always been women. this should be interesting. my neck is wound so tight i feel like it would snap if i turned too quickly. i carry all my stress in my neck and shoulders.

my best friend, and another friend, seem to have a problem with my lack of contact. well they know i have so much studio work to do that i don't have time to eat let alone call or chitchat online. for one thing, i don't have good internet access, so if i am on it's a freak of nature. i just don't have the time. it's not that i don't want to talk to anyone, it's just by the time i get home i'm exhausted. so i had to set her straight. she understands. my best friend that is. apparently the other one does not. their loss. i'm not going to make excuses for not being able to get back to someone right away. just not going to happen. if they can't deal with it, well that's their problem. not mine. life isn't always the way we want it. and i'm tired of making excuses or apologizing.

now i get a whole 19 days to do whatever. actually i would love to clean this place up but i can't since her and her cat are still here and it's a moot point. cat litter everywhere, and just messiness. so i will have to wait. i do need to get this truck in order so i'll do that. i can't get anyone to cover for me so i can't go far. i don't have the money anyway. but this will give me a chance to perhaps get into a workout routine. if i can do that in 3 weeks i can hopefully keep it up. only taking one class this summer and two in the fall. might work. i have lost about 5 pounds but i need to do more, then tighten up.

the ex asked me to move in with him when i'm done. hmmmm.....this will have to have some deep consideration....

thanks all for the comments to my call for entries post. i actually didn't do that final project, but it's interesting to see what people who do and don't know me think. it's an interesting contrast. since how people first view me is quite inaccurate. not according to me, but according to my closest friends. one or two things from the people who know me a little, and of course LL, knows me too well. i think that's why we get along so well.......if i was a lesbian i swear......hehehe