I would love to say anything I wanted

but I have a tendency to have a very sarcastic tone to my voice. So then people would have issues. One because if I really said what I wanted, it would be the truth. And in case you don't know. People don't like the truth. They like to walk around with blinders on up to their asses, thinking they are not part of any problem or have no problems or flaws that could contribute to the things that happen to them.

I would love to do anything I wanted, but I'm too timid (is that right). Or shy. O sure I"ve come a long way, but those issues still are there (there's previous posts on my anxiety at having to attend a meet&greet with the adventure club I joined but haven't become a physical part of....yet, although I am in their fantasy football league and of course it's online so it's not uncomfortable!). Plus I simply don't have the money to do just anything I wanted.

To boot, I have to PAY BACK some of the money the college gave me. F*ckers. I told them they will have to wait on it. I have it. I just don't want to part with it haha. Hell if I wanted money from them you know damn well it would take forever to get it. So they can wait. OF course I won't get my grades but hell I can wait for those haha.

I have all day to myself and I haven't done sh*t. So I better get started. I have finals and I'm slackin. But what else is new :)

I would love to go anywhere I wanted. Of course there again is the money issue. BUT....The new study abroad tours have gone up on the school website! Australia!!! Japan!!!! Well those are the only two that stand out for me. But the only problem is, I have to wait to see what classes they are offering for each. And it just might suck, becuase I don't want to waste money on taking classes that I don't need. But I want to go to one of those two places. ACtually both but I can't do both. So what to do......what to do........Classes won't be posted for a few weeks or a month or so. I am going to go to the informational meetings though. Hell I'll settle for just one class in my area! Watch it be damn ARchitecture or Basket Weaving (ok we don't have basket weaving but it's going to be something I don't need) classes. *crosses fingers squints eyes saying over and over 'please let there be one photo class, or hell even art history class*


Shit now that worked. Going from small font to normal but doesn't work when I am in HUGE font. Grrr