I'm Tired

I'm gettin old. It's showing I swear. I am barely cut out for this college stuff I tell ya. But it's almost over. And actually it's scaring me or beginning to. Because when I'm done, what will I do? I have to start over again practically. I have a large credit card bill (I had it before got laid off and well I can't pay a lot so it hasn't gone down much in a year). I will have skills in photography but not experience, at least not a lot. So I'm gettin scared.

My birthday's coming up and I"m not looking forward to it. Not that I usually do anyway. I don't really celebrate. Maybe to a lot of others it's like some great celebration. But to me. I don't know. Just seems like another year older. Another year closer to.....

The last time I went to get 'waxed' I meant to write about the Goo-Gone I saw on the table with all the waxing stuff. Thank goodness she didn't use that on me hehe. I just remembered it for some reason. Probably cause I need another waxing......

I think I'm making new friends. Although this week has been quite frustrating due to well ya know that hormonal thing. THis one guy wants to go eat after every class, but I simply don't have the money. THe girl I sit next to doesn't seem to want to go either. We are looking to workout together so that will be nice but our schedules are really different so we'll see.

And I am frustrated with work because it seems we have two photographers out (there are only four of us) and the new one was pregnant but two weeks ago had a miscarriage, although today had one too. So one of these occasions she didn't have a miscarriage, so I'm not sure what is going on with her. The fill in photographer works another job, but she did fill in for the new girl but reluctantly. I would have had to cover two hospitals and I had shit to do with my class. Although I missed the Help Session because of answering the damn phone at work which I normally don't do and had to try to smooth over some pissed off grandmother who didn't like her grandson's photos. Which I don't get paid to do so I had to call it in to my boss because Grandma decides to call and complain to the hospital which the hospital has nothing to do with our photography. What a mess. That is one reason why I don't answer the phone when I'm at work! I WON"T BE getting the phone anyMORE! If my boss wants me she will call me on my cell. Anyone else can leave a damn message.

Birthday booty call coming up so will be AFC for a while hehe. Actually I also have to photograph and get to working on my website. I hope it will be cool. I made a practice one and it's funny. I made a love story between a cow and my niece (I have some cute photos of the two so I thought it would be cute to make up a story). I got my high dollar light meter that I can't wait to use (it retails for $800 and through the school program I got it for $400, damn they make a killing on us people). Now if I can just get a few more items for my photography before school is out and I have to pay full price I'll be happy. Although now I want to upgrade from the Canon 10D to the Canon 5D although I REALLY want the Canon 1DS Mark II but that's a huge dream for me.

*sigh*