Cranky Ass

yea that's me today. going 24 hours without food takes some getting used to. it will get easier but i had a shitload of work to do today and wasn't able to do squat. i have a headache.

well i could have but i freaked out. i found a couple of houses to photograph and then i didn't. it was sunday. people were home. i guess i was more afraid of being approached as to what i was doing and forced to leave. i wouldn't have been on private property. i think i could have photographed from the sidewalk or curb. i didn't want to do it by myself. i had asked three people to go and one was too "busy with homework", the other had to work, and the other one had rugrats today. so i was on my own. and couldn't get out of the truck to photograph. if i was shooting a 35mm camera no problem. but this fucking large ass camera takes almost an hour to set up the photo for ONE picture. and first and foremost i was afraid of being harassed or told to leave. i can't help the anxiety. i've photographed tons tons before. not of course with this large camera, but still. i also didn't want someone to come by and try to take it. if it was my camera that would be one thing. but i'm walking around with almost $10,000 worth of equipment that isn't mine. so i'm a little worried about it.

i smell pretty. i smell like musk. i love musk.

i wonder what i should do for my birthday. i don't have a tub so i cannot take a bath, which i miss doing so much. i am going over to G-man's but um i barely like taking a shower over there since well it's black and white and that's NOT how the tub came. i think the last time it was cleaned was when i did it which was probably like two years or more ago. thank goodness for those scrubbing bubbles. it will certainly be put to the test in his shower. if that thing can clean his shower of the buildup, then it's worth how ever much money it costs. he installed it without cleaning the shower first so it's got a lot of work to do.

omg bug alert! fuckers. i wonder if i still have the spiders because the 'bug' got stuck in the web at the window, but damn if it didn't stay. now i've got two running around.

o wait.

got one.

TAKE THAT!