No Desire

none. to post anymore.

i have maxed out on loans so i don't know how i'm going to finish these 5 classes i have left in order to graduate (guess that's what happens when you go to school for a lifetime)

i am behind in two classes because of the major depressive slump i fell into.

i did get a 94% on my italian renaissance art history exam.

i do not qualify for scholarships because i "am not a leader in my community" and well i'm just too damn old. fuck that. i don't want to lead. i'm happy following my own course, or taking someone's course and following it in my own way.

i have never had to have a co-signer. never. not when i was a teenage. but now i do if i want the last bit to finish my education. great. now i have to 'ask'. i don't want to owe anyone. the government is one thing......

my place is a pigsty. i have had no desire to clean it.

no desire to workout.

no desire to talk to my best friend.

but i need to.

do all those things.

gotta find the desire.

this blog may self-destruct at any moment.........