I'll Admit

I've been a little depressed. I am working on getting out of it. But for now I really don't want to deal. WOrking two jobs that don't pay shit has not been helping. The clothes I bought in November don't fit anymore.

I think someone really needs to just kick me.

But anyway, some miscellaneous things that put a laugh in my day.

I know how Chicken Little thought the sky was falling. Well let me tell you that it was last week, although not sky but rats.

Yep that's right. I came out to get in the truck and there were a couple of rats in rigor on the top of the truck cab. NICE. At first I thought it was a poor baby possum, but nope. Twas a rat. Weird. I would have figured a damn cat around there would have taken it off. But nope. All day it was there. So when G-man and I went out that evening, we gave him one last ride. He needless to say made it to the back of the truck and when we got out disposed of him. Rats falling out of trees. Weird!

Oh and it's always fun making a scene at the grocery store. I don't understand why people have to stand around and gawk when you ram your grocery cart into the wine bottles only to knock one over onto the floor so it busts open. I wonder if it was an expensive one. Manager didn't bat an eye, like it happens all the time. He just asks one of the baggers to clean it up. I knew the bagger, he is such a nice kid, so I was apologetic and he was right on cleaning it up. Was I embarrassed? Nah. I felt like telling everyone to move it along though. (I'm in a cranky mood). Needless to say I held my tongue and went on shopping. I did keep my cart over it so the dumbasses in the aisle ogling the breakage wouldn't cut themselves.

Well aren't girls growing up faster. My 10 year old niece got "it" this week. Yep. Her new "friend". Aunt Flo. She is at her dad's (hahahahahhaha) and they of course had to go get 'products'. She of course learned all about what menstruation was in school already. She's so adult in her conversations now! But she is still such a kid.

My grandmother turns 86 this week. I wanted to send her something, besides a card. But......what in the world do you get an 86 year old woman? Well while I was visiting she did mention she wanted a better food processor. I may see if I can find one, but she knows I"m on a budget as well.

I have begun sorting things. Figuring out what shit I am leaving here (I have so much kitchen SHIT it's unreal), which items I want to pack now, which items I can sell or try to. And in one of the closets, it really smells like something died in there. All that is in there are clothes hanging up and tons of boxes. I sure hope I don't uncover some sort of rat in one of them. I went out and came back and figured since the door was closed it would be alright, but the smell has permeated the place. It appears I have disturbed something. Unless it is the boxes that smell.....

G-man was here for a 'visit'. I think I freaked him out when I asked him if he thought my muffin top looked like I was pregnant (which is NOT funny anyway.) But anyhow, I'm having some doubts about going there when I finish. I feel obligated on the one hand. On the other though he did say I dont' have to go there. But he has been helping support me while I am here. On another note, my grandmother mentioned me coming down to live with her. On the one hand I would have family. On the other, she is looking to move into a home, she has a deposit, she just has to wait for someone to die (hate to put it that way but that's the truth). I would not be able to afford to buy her house. I'm not sure about the job market there. I figure living in Lithia Springs (which is close to Atlanta) I would have a much better chance of job opportunities.

On another hand (yea I know I don't have that many hands) a friend of mine wants me to move in with her in Tennessee. In any of the places I wouldn't have to pay hardly any rent, I would have family/friends, can bring the dog. I am just so unsure. I'm glad I have the choices. I'd rather have them then be worrying about moving back home which I do NOT want to do. But to choose where to go is not easy. There are pros and cons to all three. I suppose I have to sit down and think real good about it.

Well that's about it in a nutshell. I really haven't done any photo work. I haven't been inspired. I do have some computer work on the past two projects I worked on so I can give those pictures to the people but I feel they are just shit and so I don't want to work on anything new. I know I need to. I think after going through these magazines I will find inspiration again. I simply don't have the motivation at the moment......