Not so easy

Now I know change is extremely difficult.

That's ok. But I wonder if I can do it.

I've been *trying* to study the zen/Buddhism/Taoism type philosophies on life. And they are all great.

In theory.

I have been making some very miniscule progress. I do meditate *on occasion* now. I do stop to practice yoga *some*. And it does help greatly. I feel I don't blow up at the drop of an idiot comment/action on the days I do this.

But I was born and raised Catholic. I eat meat. I've gone hunting and fishing. I smash bugs. I can't stand idiots. I can't stand more idiot behaviour. I can't stand EVEN MORE idiots who think it's ok to do idiot things and they are entitled to the world. I do have the occasional thought of killing *someone* and even made pla...ok best not to type it ALL out.

I digress.

But those philosophies embrace being kind to people and other living things. The other living things I have no problems with. *I'm working on the bugs though.* I mean seriously, what would the Dalai Lama do in a swarm of mosquitos? Let them feast?? I would think not?

And I have some anger issues. I don't get violent but the older I get the kettle gets closer and closer to just blowing off the top. I am not an advocate for violence, but sometimes I think on occasion it might be necessary in this day and age.

Just some thoughts.

Don't mind me.

Back to your usual programming.

BTW I'm kind of trying the non-meat thing. Slowly. Got this MorningStar sausage. It better taste good. I've had the crumbles in with my spaghetti sauce and it was pretty tasty.

*takes a bite* eh. Not the same a *real* sausage. But it'll do.