Mid-life Adventure

When I spoke with someone from Hostelling International, I was just asking some questions and was concerned about the age difference. I know I shouldn't be but well I do feel 'old' now when I am around a younger crowd. I shouldn't. I know that. I should have more confidence in myself but I simply don't.

Anyway, I was telling the lady that I don't mind the younger crowd but didn't want to 'hang out' with a lot of people half my age, and that since I was having a mid-life crisis that I may be older than many of the travellers. She said, "You are having a mid-life adventure and you should be proud of that." WOOHOO Mid-life adventure I like it. I told her I was going to use it. Then she did let me know that travellers of all ages use hostels, that they aren't just for high school or college age kids. So I felt a little better.

I felt even better when talking with my boss. I said, "I'm knocking on the door to 40 and I'm feeling old and feel a little uncomfortable around the younger kids." She was like, "Really? I figured you were in your late 20s." O0o0o I love her. I don't know if she is a bad judge of age or was trying to make me feel better or really meant it.

The woman I work with at my hospital also said today that she thought I was in my mid to late 20s. I love her too. Again, not sure if she really meant it or may just be saying that or what. It felt good.

I really am feeling my age though. My knees and now ankles and wrists crack. Not a good sound. I haven't been strength training like I should and I know my lack of fitness is going to hurt me out in Australia. But I have resolved that hopefully this trip will kick start my program. I will be eating less and moving more. I just have to keep it up when I get back here. I will begin taking my joint minerals or whatever they are, and take my multi-vitamin.

I don't want to look younger. I know that just isn't possible. I just want to be fit again. I am not worried so much about wrinkles and extra hair. I just want to be able to not break something if I fall down. I don't know which is better: to be physically capable and lose my mind, or lose my physical capacities but my mind stays sharp. I would prefer to be physically able AND keep my sharp mind. But the body shows wear and tear, like a car, or a building, or anything that is around a long time. Parts get rusty and time takes its toll. I just want to keep it as well oiled as I possibly can.

I don't want plastic surgery. I wouldn't want to get put under the knife and risk death for vanity. I don't believe in those "creams and lotions" that promise the fountain of youth. WASTE OF MONEY. IF I have issues with any part of my body, well that's just life. I would rather spend my money and energy and time on people and things I care about and can use productively rather than looking like a plastic doll. You see those people who get all the surgeries and you think the same things: their lips/boobs/cheeks/face looks fake. Looks plastic. Looks WRONG. Because it is. I don't want to plump up my lips with botilism. I don't want someone pulling my neck up to my forehead. I don't want my boobs to point up to the sky when I lay down. That's not natural. Now granted I wouldn't mind having my stomach sucked out, but you know I can do that for free IF I JUST GET OFF MY COUCH AND DO MORE CRUNCHES. And I will. And I will save thousands of dollars TYVM.


I may not be happy with some of my appearance, but only I have the capacity and need the willpower to change it. That's all each of us have. It's no one else's fault, no one else is going to do it for us, and if you aren't happy with it now, you won't be happy with it when you pay a million dollars for it. Watch those idiotic reality plastic surgery shows. They aren't happy because they keep going in for surgery. Sad.