Holy Guacamole!

BTW i hate guacamole but that's my favorite saying. i'm trying to cut back on the cussing/cursing, especially in front of the little ones, and seeing as my niece wanted to know what i gave up for Lent, which i confused the shit out of her when i said i was a Buddhist so i don't give things up for Lent i give them up on a daily basis haha. she looked at me like i was a heathen, not that she knows what that means but if she did that'd be the look.

i wasn't going to write til later but i figure i'll piece it out today. i am just a little perturbed at this one guy, and am like FUCK IT. for good. we have been emailing but haven't actually gotten together lately due to missing each other or i've been sick, he's been whatever. so last weekend he's like *hope we can get together soon, call me*. ok so i ask him if it's a good time to call (last night). no response. so i said, ok since i didn't hear from you, you just let me know if you want to get together this weekend. no response. i didn't call without first an ok or something because a girl can only handle so much rejection from once person. and for me that's once. last time we did this song and dance he said the miscommunications were a sign and that his ex was back in the picture and didn't want to tango with both of us. ok FINE. i get that. so now apparently the ex is the EX again and he wants to do something. ok. a few weeks ago he had a massive hangover so our date wasn't happening. so last weekend i was sick as a dog, so that date wasn't happening. now *POOF* nada. well i hate people giving out mixed signals. and actually it's more like me *wondering* at the no-response stuff, since he responds pretty quickly. ya know, as much as it will sting *it only hurts when the relationship has been more solid* for a minute, but i can handle the truth. found someone else? say so. although the cruel truth is a little much, so i can handle ya know the i'm seein someone else, i'm not interested, WHATever, just SAY someTHING, just don't disappear. makes for too much stuff going through the head and in most cases, i overthink haha.

anyhow on to other things. i am showing some of my work to a place downtown today. so i best be getting ready for it. thank goodness for the preview link, i forgot the dash and it took you to a chinese website haha.