It's all about ME ok not really but sounded good

Ok me and everyone else born in the year of the rooster/cock. i meant to write about this before but completely forgot! that's right it was chinese new year and this year it's the rooster. Cock-a-doodle-doodly!! haha. now i don't feel so bad because with some people heavily hinting that i am perhaps somewhat selfish...that's the damn rooster characteristic! well ok i'm not a complete astrology/whatever freak, but i do believe there is something to these things. and especially when it has to do with the chinese culture, because come on people they have been doing things for over 3000 years, documented and the shit freakin works. did i tell ya my gigantic hive story? some of you know i had these hives for some time and i couldn't get rid of them. anyhoo, i will tell later if'n y'all really want to know, just has to do with TCM and acupuncture etc which i swear by now. anyhow, i am 35, yes folks i am. i am me. unless i am going to work hard at changing a personality trait, it's here to stay for the long haul. and i guess that means, well i'm somewhat selfish. that has a story, and it has to do with the ex, but i don't feel like getting into it. i'm feelin randy and i'm tired and i want to read my vampire book. it's good, well to me it is. i like to read before i go to bed, i actually have a hard time going to sleep if i don't read something, well usually fiction because it is supposed to relax me, even if it is just one page.

i wanted to change the color. kewlness. and about my earlier post.....see i should just wait before i freakin put what i'm thinking in writing cause i'm almost embarrassed. he thought he told me he was working a lot and well he didn't and so that's why he hadn't called/emailed. i know probably not a dilemma y'all really care about, but i had to continue to the end. who knows maybe someone was wondering WTF happened. oh and when i was talking about hating being rejected more than once, i meant that it would sting more hearing that rejection on the phone or in person rather than email, i like to take the safe route hehe.

wow ok that is a painful color. this one is better. i did receive my tax return so i'm extremely happy. now i don't feel so heavy thinking about where i'm going to come up with the money to pay some bills. as no as of yet i do not have a job. i've interviewed for the county and awaiting an answer. those wheels turn slower than molasses downhill.

bummer, rain in the forecast for atlanta sunday. that's ok i have plans on takin the pooch to get his weekly energy-expender trip. i feel bad some days cause he loves being outside but we don't have a yard. oh well he deals. just when he looks at me with those puppy dog eyes *aw*. ok enough of that. i do see a high of 60 something for wednesday and i plan on taking some photos of a local state park that has a nice lake and river. i think i've got some good places scouted out and it's free on wednesdays. not that i don't mind paying because i don't, just well i'm watching the pennies. speaking of i have an ammunition canister full of pennies i have to count haha!

and damn if smarty can put her pic on here i better get my ass in gear and figure it out! hey how come no one has posted anything in my thingy on the side of my blog? poopoo on you!

i am not sure what will come about this weekend. since i'm not sure what this man is working on this weekend, if we will even get to some relaxing massages hehe, would be nice but i won't hold my breath, i do know i have to take Snoopy *that is my 'yota truck* for some brake/rotor replacement and a lookover on sunday, other than that i'm not doing much. gathering my things, throwing things away, cleaning, ya know organizing so i don't have so much crap to take with me when i move, and perhaps photograph some roses for my portfolio and class. not a very exciting weekend i know folks, i'll try to come up with better. although i was thinking of going back out to utah for another survival-type trip, but this time they have courses like animal tracking or hide making. that would be so neat. but that's all if i can get a job here in the very very near future.

toodles!