Kiss my butt

thats how i feel today. not to anyone here personally, please, but to anyone that crosses my path today that just gives me the wrong eyeball. why? i don't know, maybe cause i smoked a few cigarettes last night *n-a-a-a-sty* why don't ask, and now i woke up not being able to breathe and stuff. that and i'm tired and it's raining again which means i have to stay IN the house with these people i live with. see i like going out as much as possible, especially when the sun is out because i just love the sun, makes me feel good, of course it has to be warm, i hate it cold, makes me feel like i'm well COLD. so i guess i woke up wrong today. i'll meditate, although this damn dvd player is so NOT working on this computer which means i gotta go downstairs. and i'll do some yoga to stretch out my muscles. i haven't done those in a while and that's probably why i get too snippy during the day sometimes.

i guess also the fact that i didn't do anything exciting this weekend and that my ex has some chic in his life. hey even if they aren't going out HE got flowers. what'd i get? PFFFT. ok i shouldn't be like that because it's not the QUANTITY of THINGS that i want, really. because flowers do die. i suppose it's the gesture. i did get a nice email from my long time long distance friend, and i rarely talk to him so that was wonderful.

i want to go see a movie. i don't care what i just have the urge to go. i haven't seen a movie in a theater for a long time. i used to subscribe to netflix, but terminated that since i'm unemployed. that was great, just order movies watch em whenever and send em back whenever. great for the laziness in me hehe. i highly recommend a trial period. blockbuster is finally jumping on the bandwagon but i just can't stand them for some reason. anyhoo, now the subject of WHO to go to the movies with. i used to go with my friend pam but she's no longer in this state. i suppose i could sign up for the email account on match.com and answer some emails. yes i do have a profile. close your mouth. it's actually quite interesting, although i haven't spent too much time on there. i've been talking to two until one dropped off. he said he'd call and we'd do something when he got back in town like last month and that never happened....so....buh bye. the other one has yet to ask to meet me, which i find odd, but *shrugs*, perhaps he wants ME to do it. now granted i'm an independent woman and stuff, but i still like some of the old-fashioned ways. that and i guess i'm not as strong when it comes to rejection that i'd like to be or that men are. not saying rejection doesn't affect men, i know it does, but i'm just more of a wimp i guess.

ah well, i will not dwell on that today. i'll just try to go about my business of finding a job, STILL, although i am waiting on information from the county again. but i won't sit and wait, i'll still plug away. then i have photo stuff to organize. i am in the process of printing more utah photos, and then i have to figure out a way to frame them cheaply *HA* so that i can get my own exhibit up at this little cafe in midtown. THEN i have to read some for the art history class *chinese art, i just love asian culture*. and then i am going to clean up some junk i don't want, magazines mostly although i've been postponing that project. and get my ad ready to sell my snakes. anyone interested??? have a california king and a ball python, with tanks, want more info just email, i think i have it listed, put *snakes* in subject or i'll delete it if'n i don't know ya.

anyhoodles, i've come across some interesting blogs. i like the ones in other languages. they look so nice, even though i can't understand one iota. Y's has by far the most photos displayed, that i've seen so far, except there is this one guy from atlanta who posts his artwork.

welp, i should have started my day a long time ago.....toodles!