Morning Muses

it's so nice out this weekend so far. have to start planning things to do. just wish i had more companions to do them with. the few girlfriends i have are married, so there's that invisible bondage thing i gotta work with LOL. not that it's a bad thing. i like doing things with the married couples. but there's something to say about the girl's club. my other girlfriends are in other states. and i don't have many male friends here. there again they are married and well their women aren't as understanding. i don't want to sleep with their husbands, HELL no. i am one of those people who can be simple friends with a male if i don't want to sleep with him LOL.

*tom* works out of town during the week and the weekend is usually filled with things he has to catch up on and friends. and i'm not sure this *tom* thing will be a thing. he's very work oriented. it's funny cause when i watch him and he's talking about work he's very very serious. then it's like a light switch goes on in his head and i'm there. and he's all soft and sensual. then *flick* there's that light switch again if something's on his mind and he gets serious and thoughtful. i do like the regularness of having someone to sleep with in bed, but it's been what a year and a half since my ex, and a few one nighters since then. so i can manage LOL. we've only had a few dates so i don't know how to handle this. i think almost every first date i've had before ended up turning into a LTR. funny. so i guess i don't really know how to *just date*. i never really did that as a teen. i was an ugly----no make that FUGLY teenager LOL. my sister's the hottie. i'll post her pic if i get her permission. she got all bent when i cut her out of the one i posted. LOL. now i better not see comments under her picture if i post it, cause there isn't any under mine. and i have a complex when it comes to my sister. i admit it. pfft.

now there's *harry*. ok you all might laugh, cringe, be disgusted, whatever. but i met both of them through match. don't knock it til you try it. i guess it's the club scene for the new millenium. i don't know. i just know me. i don't go out alone much. i do but it's uncomfortable. all the leery guys hang out on the periphery just scoping out that single fish to attack. and it's usually me LOL. i do like going with friends, but see above. and i'm not much into meeting men at the clubs. most of my LTRs have been, they turned out well, but there is always an issue, usually alcohol. and i am not a teetotaller *is that the right word? spelling i'm sure is off* but i have issues with alcohol that stem from a family member. i drink, just not to excess, ever. it's a control thing too. so yes i posted a profile. it's nice to see that i've had over 3000 hits LOL. anyhow, i'm still picky on there so i haven't dated much. but *harry* is a new one and i apparently passed his tests, although he was 40 minutes late for our first date lmao! gotta love the traffic around here. o maybe i should tell ya about my first date with *tom* lmao. i barely spoke! what a riot. but that's cause i had issues. which i guess i shouldn't go there LOL.

i've had a request to dish out the scoop on *tom*. he's 40, a CPA, certifiably predictably anal, lmao, nah we were joking about that. he is anal, really bad. ya know when ya see the sex scenes in movies and the couple have there clothes all strung about the room. HA. not his room. everything had to be put up on a chair or table somewhere. too damn funny! our first date he was takin the hairs that just fall out off my shirt and putting them in the trash can. i was like *eyeroll* oh boy. so when he wasn't looking i'd take them off my shirt or pants and throw them on the floor. such a rebel! he's auditor actually. hey i am probably posting TMI. LOL. he's not going to see this unless i show him anyway. but his son Brutus is a fabulous Harley getting an engine upgrade and will probably bring me to the big *O* in less than 5 miles out on a trip LOL. and here i am with another satisfied customer. it would seem so cocky of me to post testimonials from previous men. but when those ad things say *what's your best feature* i can insert those in there. one is my legs. although i think they've gone by the wayside, cause my behind is ranking up there lately, although i think *a woman I am so yea I got issues with things I can't see behind me LOL* it's just still too big. not that i want a tiny ass. i want something there. has to be curvy. i won't ever be 36-26-36 but that's fine by me *see previous posts*. i'll be happy if it gets down to 36. i forget what it is i gotta go back to my exercise logs. i probably should measure again, but it's not time yet. i haven't been working out as much. ok anything else? he shaves his head and chest, thank GOD no back hair, but i'm sure he'd wax that if he had any. i'm sorry, i've been with one sweaterback and i won't go back. that's just me. picky, shallow whatever. like i said though none of my ex's have been perfect. hell my best friend and i made a *Sweaterman* song to the tune of Spiderman. OMG fuking hilarious!! anyhoo he looks like a combination of the previous pics. i'll have to snap a photo LOL. my Lil Sistah *here's your dedication sis LOL* calls him Kojak. I should buy him some lollies....

*coffee break*
*smoke break for those who smoke*
*phone call break, see about church and truck repairs*
sheesh *potty break too*

ok i have returned lol. not that you would have noticed hehe. ok. now where was i going? ok Protein. i've started on protein drinks to help me recover from my weight-bearing workouts. and let me just tell you, i think i'd rather drink a raw egg. this shit is nasty no matter how ya make it. and i was recommended the better of the protein powders, designer whey. vanilla. i should have gone for the chocolate but ok. so i dump the stuff in water. NASTY! next time i try it in milk, better but still get the gag thing going. today i tried orange juice. the shit just doesn't dissolve right i swear. you get this bubble of powder that didn't mix right and you take a swig and it dissolves in your mouth *gag*. i guess i'll have to get a blender, the last one we had you could hear from the next neighborhood and that was supposed to be a good one. maybe try a smoothie. cause at this rate i ain't gonna drink it anymore. but i need to for recovery purposes. i hate feeling all sore for days in a row. i workout hard and i shouldn't but figure the protein will help me. hehe.

i live just north of atlanta. yep i know all about the brian nichols thing. let me tell you this. he should not have gotten out of that courthouse. alive. anyone who shot him would not have gone to jail i'm sure of it. anyhow i have some serious problems with fulton county. and dekalb county but that's another story. first of all, i don't believe those deputies should be carrying. at least not guns. give em tasers, stun guns, billyclubs, but not guns. if our asses can't get past the detectors, there really is no need, unless they bring a wooden one but that's highly unlikely with the people down there. secondly, these deputies are not in good shape. granted, i do not know about the ones that got shot or her weapon stolen, i really didn't see. but from the people i've seen in uniform that do such duty, are a disgrace. i mean come on. they carry too much extra baggage around the middle and by the time they find their feet they are going in the wrong direction. not all, mind you, but most. make them fucking WORKOUT if they have to deal with these criminals. if they didn't have the guns in the first place this wouldn't have happened. maybe they will revise the rules due to this. it's a shame something like this had to happen to look at the rules. i am all for guns. hehe my ohio friend calls me country. well i've been here what since 98, *you all do the math i'm an artISTE LOL* and well i guess i've adapted to some ways and to my chagrin apparently have an AXCENT. LOL. that's ok. it's cute. LOL. i've also have a boyfriend of almost 4 years who well is a redneck. he drives trucks older than dirt, fixes them up and they run older than dirt *but hey they run! but he did do a wonderful job of my engine rebuild on my 'yota*, has a cooler of beer *and water* in the back of his pickup, two dogs, and firearms in every corner of his house. he helped my buy a .32 Beretta Titatium Tomcat. i have yet to get a CCP, but i will before i leave. i'm a decent shot. i got that because in most cases, men are up on women so i want something that i can empty in some choice parts when up close and personal like that. Hollow point bullets, 3 clips, one sittin in the barrel ready to go. it's neat, you push this button and the barrell pops up. CUTE! hehe. ok, but i'm actually better with a 9mil Ruger. i practiced with his. i hated it at first cause the damn thing is heavier and it was all over the place. but i'll be damned if i can hit all 6 bowling pins and coffee cans now from several yards away! and i'm the only girl that got em all amongst all the men! W00T! i can see Ruu laffin now lol. anyhow, my next purchase will be a 9mil Ruger. i'd rather have the pre-ban one, allows for a larger clip to hold more bullets, but we'll see. my ex has some cool weapons. AR-15 with a scope. now that's the bomb. he calls it his *whoop-ass gun* he borders paranoia i tell ya. i'm like, what are you doing with all these weapons? he's like i want to make sure they won't get up in here. hmmm. they will be sorry i tell ya. i have my target practice sheet and i did pretty damn good for a newbie! i know some people have issues with guns. it's actually a strange feeling when you hold one. kinda tingly. knowing that steel thing holds a tiny bullet that can kill a person. there is such bad press about them. but it's not the gun. the gun won't just *go off* like some people believe. and when you hear they do that's cause some asshole is drunk while cleaning it and didn't make sure it was unloaded. unless of course some redneck messed with it and gave it a hair trigger. but most aren't like that. you have to actually pull the trigger to make it work and it takes a little pressure on the trigger. it's the person behind the weapon. i carry mine in the truck. it's legal, the vehicle is an extension of my home so i don't need a permit. so nobody better try to truck-jack me cause they are gonna be pumped full of lead if i can manage. unless of course i take it out and chase down the fucker who's botherin me. but i won't do that i don't think. i dont' want to know what i'd do in a situation like that. so hope it never happens. i tell ya when instinct takes over, can't say what you'll consciously do, cause it's an instinct thing. my ex gave me good advice, cause i had issues with even thinking if i fired that gun that i'd kill someone and then I the victim would be hauled off to jail, he said: if i have to even pick it up, i better unload it, the entire clip, no fartin around like they do on the tv shows and movies and say *you better watch it i know how to use it* that's pussyshit, by the time you get that sentence out they know you won't fire it, and make sure he's facing me cause shooting someone in the back is hard to claim as self-defense, but hey if i fired in the front then he turned around that could be ok, then i claim i was in fear for my life that he'd come back and get me, which i would be, even though i know Tai Chi and carry a weapon i'm still a female and realistically will never be as physically strong as a man. i was in a freaky situation one time and realized if a man was seriously trying to hurt me, i'd never be able to get him off of me in the prone position. i gotta work on that. anyhow i can carry my Beretta in my front pants pocket it's that small. hey i only need to maim so i can run for help, but i could kill him with the proper shooting, but if i wanted to kill for sure i'd get a .45 desert eagle but hell i probably couldn't keep it in position long enough, it's a damn hand cannon. my parents freaked out when they heard i got a gun, but i don't bring it in the house. hope nothing happens cause then i gotta go run to the truck to get it LOL.

ok i think i've spent enough time on this blog. gotta get the rear axle and cv joint replaced on my truck *pays to stay on good terms with the Ex*. i just gotta get me some hooters gift certificates for him. one place says they don't have them. i'm like that's impossible. fuckheads. guess they don't want the business. he won't go without a gift cert. and i'd rather pay him in something he wants *uh no he hasn't asked for that kinda payment, not that i wouldn't give it cause i WAS his girlfriend but it's kinda different now*. and i offered to pay him half the labor costs if i went to a shop but he wouldn't take it. he's got 25 acres so i go take the dog and we *get lost*. plus i might as well reshoot my flowers.