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that's how i'm feeling today. not quite sure why but i am. i got up later than i wanted (8:30) and didn't get to the freaking gym like i wanted. i forgot the school's gym closes early on saturday, but i'll head up there tomorrow in the afternoon. weird hours. i guess they want to party from the afternoon on and then on sunday get up later so then they can hit the gym after their hangovers. gosh i don't miss that crap LOL. i miss my other gym, but i simply can;t afford the membership. they had aerobics classes etc. now i have to deal with my gaining some poundage and getting into a higher gear to make myself get up to the school gym. i don't mind it, it's just small, and if there's more than say 3 people in there, it starts reakin, especially when there are men in there LOL. and gets humid, and hot. well i can deal with the sweat smell, i just hate having to fight these people for weights or WAITING. i hate to wait. fridays are the best day because no one there workin out hardly. but i have to rush since they close at 6. so i missed this past friday. *argh* i am taking tai chi, but ya know what, i'm just not motivated for it anymore. for one i've lost all respect for my teacher. but at least my suspicions were right about the type of person he is. so sad. anyhow, i just also am a perfectionist so when i do the moves i expect to get them right. not good for me. because hell even masters are still improving. not that i will stop, it is just one of those things i wish i had started when i was like BORN LOL because it's a lifelong process. i have been trying to kickbox on my own but it's so much more fun with an aerobics class. but i do seriously have to move more. i've gotten lazy again. and it's showing in my waist. hell i'll settle for no discernable roll. i don't need an hourglass waist. pffft. anyhow i better get into the shower, a friend is visiting and we are going to eat and hit a movie. that should make me feel better. plus i've fasted today, well it won't be the whole day seeing as i'm going to eat dinner, but hopefully i won't eat too much. salad, must....have.....salad with my meals...........