Just another weekend. Actually i got a new 'do (photos to come), and will be off to tennessee for some R&R. i need it. although i NEED to clean this place up but well that will just have to wait. i've begun to pack my dvds. *sigh* i love my collection, but seeing as the spring is here anyway, i usually try to get out and about and stay away from the tv. the tv is like my drug. once i sit down i can't get up. so if i don't sit down, i'm good LOL. weird i know.

i thought about doing some good, for others, who need it. me? yes me. i have done it before. i would rather volunteer some PLACE but because of my work schedule i really can't. i wanted to volunteer on a horse farm, where they use horses to help people with disabilities. called hippotherapy? not sure i spelled that right. weird name but it's interesting. but because i started an 8-5 job, i can't volunteer during the week. i found this in a magazine, and thought i would see what it was about. i know people who've died from cancer. ive ran in, ok at the time walked, in a race or two for cancer, diabetes too. but anyhow, i figure if i can brighten someone's day, somewhere, i would be a little happier. i loved volunteering at the zoo. until they took the pony section away. well i did some educational stuff, but it's not the same, as interacting with the animals. granted i like interacting with kids too, but animals are less trouble LOL. then i volunteered at a church in the nursery. that was nice. nice people and the kids were sweet. well most of them. aw i still remember this boy, had the bluest eyes i've seen, cried when his mom left and would walk over and put his head on my shoulder and cry softly. he didn't cry long but it was.....aw is all i can say. and i cried when i left, not sure he knew that i wasn't coming back. wonder how he is now ya know? probably a heartbreaker lol. so if i can't physically help somewhere, maybe through the mail or the internet. so chemo angels might be the way. i probably won't start until after i move and stuff, because i don't want to slack off on a commitment i make. especially when it comes to others who are depending on me. so we'll see. maybe i can show them the world through my photos. hmmm never know. but they get pretty filled up with applications each month so i figure i can wait. plus i'll have more time i hope. as long as i'm not in a financial hole from school. dang here come the worries again eeeeek!

i would so love to go on a safari. but that's something i will have to postpone indefinately. i came across gap adventures in a magazine and man if i could take just one trip with them i'd be happy. i think i want to do south africa, but damn if those trips didn't just about double in price. should have/could have/would have. guess they have gotten pretty popular. well all the adventure stuff has been since these reality shows. O)0o0o)O0oO)o00 speaking of reality shows, i gotta talk about one i saw last night, Mr. Romance. o PLEASE. anyhow, i would like to hit the survival school again, but there again that will have to wait. they have some new programs i wanted to take, but since i started a new job, i don't want to up and take vacation/holiday.

Mr. Romance. I was channel surfing during a commercial and saw this on the Oxygen channel. OMG how ridiculous. I am only guessing at the jist of it, since i didn't watch it too much, but i think they are trying to find someone to put on the cover of romance novels, or be a character or something? i might look it up but right now uh no. it was just funny. all these scantily clad hunky guys, which let me tell you some of them were just butt ugly, trying to make the women's meters go up, kind of like a graph or something. like they press this remote control looking thing i guess to see how they like the guy. this poor guy was about flatlining. hell he looked good but opened him mouth and it was like uh what? man some of these women are BRUTAL! they tell what they liked/didn't like about the men. and they got to hear it in the "observation room". talk about rejection LOL. one woman was like "if guys talk about how great they are in bed, well they aren't". o too funny. which is basically true. i think men have a warped sense of their skills. not all, and i'm sure we women do too, but i think most of us are already hard on ourselves and actually are better then we think we are. men i think well i don't know i won't go there right now LOL. like for instance, i think i have a fat ass. well its not LARGE but it's not where i want it to be either, although it has diminished in size. so a few of my male friends, want photos, ya know to see how hard i really am about it. and i get compliments on it, apparently a good feature i have. hmmm why i'm talking about my ass, i don't know, so i best get off THAT subject LOL. well i know why i was talking about it but anyHOW. i think Fabio is the host or something of this show. don't know who he is? he is looking really old now LOL, but he was a model for romance novels back in the day or something. not that i read too many but i had my phase. LMAO i just looked him up and he has a fan site. well i suppose most people in the tv/radio/theater world do. it' just kind of cracks me up. i am a closet jean-claude van damme fan so i guess i shouldn't laff. well not closet, but people look at me like i've got three eyes when i say i will be his next wife. ok i won't but can i just have my FANtasy people?!?!?! I NEED MY EYE CANDY TOO! LOL