I am SO ready to go

now. to get out of this town and finish my education. i am but not. i am not ready as in packed up, just ready mentally. i just want to start my new chapter. i know i shouldn't rush it. it's been coming up pretty quick and i can only imagine August being right around the corner that it's going to go really fast. i just want to leave the environment. i'm tired of the alcoholic environment. just seems like there's a wet blanket over the house when i come in here. granted i love my family but some days it's hard to like them. i'm at a creative block with my photography. i haven't takne as much archery as i wanted and practiced my tai chi like i need. it's just a dampening environment. so i'm ready to go.

i love going through all my old photos. i'm working on submitting a few for a call for entry for animal photos. but i've still got to put away my old ones from when i was a kid. i can't help but smile when i see some of them. it's interesting to see where i've been and done as a kid. i don't remember much from my childhood, usually the bad stuff. i have some photos of when i went to indiana to visit relatives who had a farm there. it was so different to see all the different animals and the smells and sounds. plus a lot of openness. i've always lived in the suburbs so shopping and almost anything i wanted was not too far away. it just amazes me the types of environments there are in just the united states, from coast to coast, from the south to north.

i was born in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. i guess i've been raised in a few places, philadelphia or suburbs, Syracuse NY, Washington Township NJ, Baltimore, MD. I was in Philly for oh 5 or 6 years? Then to NY for at least a couple of years. NJ for 7 years. almost 8 years in Maryland. I used to determine where my home was by how long I lived there. So when I moved to Maryland my heart was in NJ. WELL I lived there just slightly longer so Maryland is where my heart is. Well it was in California but that's for another reason. Looks like Georgia will be longer than that. Was 7 years July 4. And well I have two and a half more years in this state. I have relatives in Florida, Pennsylvania, Vermont, Colorado, Texas. I've been to several states and would like to hit them all. Let me see where I've been. I would love to travel outside the US, but that will come later.

Been to and what i did:

Alabama - zoos
Arizona - wedding
California - visiting
Delaware - relatives
DC - travel, passing through, zoo
Florida - relatives and zoo
Georgia - live
Hawaii - relatives and zoo
Illinois - visiting
Indiana - relatives and visiting
Iowa - visiting
Kentucky - Derby
Louisiana - zoo and visiting
Maryland - lived, pass through, zoo
Minnesota - visit
Nevada - visit, wedding
New Jersey - lived
New York - lived
North Carolina - visit, pass through
Ohio - visit, zoo
Pennsylvania - lived, zoo
South Carolina - pass through, visit
Tennessee - visit, pass through
Texas - visit, pass through
Utah - visit
Virginia - pass through, visit
West Virginia - visit
Wisconsin - visit

Wow 28. I didn't realize that. Over half. Wow I'm impressed hehe. Granted I may not have done a whole lot in a few of the states but hey I was THERE. that's all that counts in my list haha. Now if i can hit all the zoos....Man just going through the list brings back snippets of the things i did.

I would love to hit Alaska next. A cruise. But I'll probably hit some closer states first. Montana is at the top too with Wyoming. Have to hit some National Parks. O man I have so much to do. I just hope I can do them before something happens. Having some kidney trouble again, and bleeding like a stuck pig (yea i am sure y'all didn't need to see that but it's my blog). Hoping it's just Aunt Flo stoppin by early, and not due to recent events. It is a different experience getting older i tell ya. Before I turned 30 something, I used to just get those lovely yeast infections when it was more than a couple of weeks between a sexual encounter. Now i bleed. Lordy. I suppose things just are not working the same eh?!

So I guess I was raised in two maybe three states. Like I said I had mostly unpleasant memories, but the good ones are interspersed in there> The photos help, as well as talking to my sister and relatives. We had some good times. I wish I was still in contact with my cousins and such, but I suppose things just happen for a reason. Relationship dynamics change. Most of my family are married now, have kids. Lots have finished college and have good jobs. Some have run into trouble, some had grown up with some traumatic experiences. Ah well, such is growing up...

I don't suffer from insanity, I'm enjoying every minute of it