At Wit's End

what the hell is a wit anyway? but I'm there. i tell ya. more drama than you can fuckin imagine. o i'm sure it could be worse. well i know it could, but right now it's hell.

breakdown: NOW the fucktard comes to the house, wakes my sister up at 1am since he doesn't get to his until those hours, tells my sister she's got a week to move out because his ex-wife fucked up her own job by disclosing information from the temp company my sister was going through (she works there) to her ex-husband. the company my sister was workin for through the temp company apparently cut the contract with said temp company because that bitch revealed confidential information about my sister to an outside party. so now it's my sister's fault they lost the contract and his ex might lose her job (although we don't know because he wouldn't say what the F the problem was in the first place, just said he's kickin her and a 9 year old out on the street. can you say WHAT A MAN???) makes sense? probably not.

i'm not fuckin goin anywhere and neither is she. if he wants to kick us out then he's gonna have to get the po-po involved and physically put our shit out. i am SO sick of this mess. and people wonder why i'm untrusting of seeking help from others or relying on others. i am trying not to let this shit screw up my school, but if i have to live in my truck through this quarter i will. i don't have the money to get my own apt. i have applied for an extended loan which kills me since i'm going to own thousands of dollars, and probably triple digits when i'm done with ONLY a BFA (yea i know i fucked up early on lol). i knew i should have stuck with my plan and hell lived on campus as the resident old lady. i can't believe people (my sister's BF, his ex, her ex, which are all other stories for never). i know people arent' all going to think like me, but knowing people blame the entire world on everyone else for their own damn problems??? they should be shot, in various parts until they figure it out or bleed out. i think a kneecap should go first.

i wish i had something good to post on. but i'm alive, and that's good i think. i brought most of my stuff back to my ex's and my parents for now. i just need to find a place and hopefully fast. but i don't get my loan money for like 4 weeks?!?!?!? i did find a place on the beach, apparently fully furnished, for $650. 2BD 1BA. upstairs apartment. i need to call her today. but i don't know if i can get it, and have the money for it during a short term lease. i so do not want to ask anyone for money even though i'd pay it back as soon as i got the loan money. this just sucks.....