I can BREATHE

o man this has been one hell-o kitty of a quarter. i rather like my life with as little drama as possible.

it's funny, now when i think about something that is irritating, funny, or anythign else otherwise noteworthy, i think "hey i'll blog about that" and then when it comes time i can't remember WTF i was gonna say. i so hate that

o speaking of hating things:

---i hate when someone sees you barrelling down the road, they are still sitting there, waiting for you to pass, until *BAM* they decide to pull out right in front of you and proceed at a snail's pace, so i'm forced to blow on the horn and/or swerve right or left according to what is oncoming and if there's a ditch on the side, and/or slam on my brakes, causing profuse cussing and arm waving and horn blowing.

---i hate when i go somewhere, expecting at least a HELLO or some kind of basic service, only to be looked at like i'm intruding on the cashier/customer service rep's day, or they used their 'niceties' on the black/asian/mexican person before them. now i know that may sound racist, but it's the damn truth. i walked up to the register with a black woman in front of me, and the cashier was OOOOOOOOOOO so sweet and nice. then i come up to check out and i didn't get a peep. i smiled. nothing. i said hello. not a damn thing just the *ding* *ding* of the items. so i said, "is there a reason why you were all nice to her and i get an attitude?". you don't know what i wanted to say. i told her i hoped she had a better fucking day.

---i hate when people driving KNOW that their lane is going to merge, yet they HAVE to get in front of me acting like they are going to cruise along a little over or a lot over speed limit, that's fine, seeing as they may not want to be behind someone slower, ok i can handle that, get in front of me, but NOOOOOOOOO then they putt along at 50 miles below a 55 mile speed limit and i'm up their ass. they wonder why i speed up and not let them in front of me. assholes i tell ya.

---i hate that the palmetto bugs in my current residence don't pay me rent

on the other side of that:

---i love my apartment. granted i have electric heat, which i can't stand being cold but i don't want to rack up my electric bill, especially since they are increasing their damn rates. but i can walk around naked. half naked. i can do what i want. i dn't have to worry about any mess. i don't have to clean right away. but i do miss the company on occasion, although i feel my sister will be up here more often than i like

---i love the view. i love that i'm only less than a mile from the beach and i will walk up there often.

---i love candles. it still smells like 'old people' or something in my place. it hasn't been lived in for a while, so i'm sure it's not old people but it just has an odor. candle's are good but they don't help much

---i love ebay. i can find whatever the hell i want. anything under the sun i tell ya. i did even see some snakes for sale (live) which isn't allowed and since i can't put my snakes up on ebay i reported them LOLOLOL

now i just have so many OTHER things to do. i need to clean up my lovely apartment, it's a total wreck. i haven't really moved anything in; things are just in boxes, although most of the kitchen is done. i have to get a job. i have to get my shit that i dropped off at my ex's back haha. well most of it anyhow. i hate to be a burden. then again he is going to replace my speed sensor, help me learn to change these fucking tires in case it happens again, and replace my idler arm. all for the price of.....my booty hahaha. we are going to test out his sex drive too, might as well ya know?, he's been takin some meds since he found out his father has pancreatic cancer and that medicine causes a decrease in sexual drive so i'll help him see if it's still up to par. hey, isn't that the world of barter/trade? i don't mind lol. need to bring the dog BACK to my folks so i don't have to get rid of him, need to fix my high dollar phone AGAIN, damn i need to make a list.

i did make two websites in class but didn't learn how to upload it to the net. will work on that since we get free space at my high dollar university. not too shabby, and it's a LOT easier than writing out the fucking code!!! (dreamweaver, love it).

well i guess that sums it up. i need to re-evaluate how i manage my time here. really hard when the shift goes from full time work to full time college. my responsibilities are similar yet i have more time that i need to use to be more involved in school and my desired profession or i won't get anywhere out of school. i might as well use these resources at my high dollar school! oh LucasArts was there looking for reels. it is too cool the people that come to SCAD to scout for artists. i mean it's impressive. i know they go elsewhere but hell, one recent graduate worked on the Lord of the Ring movies doing the visual effects. too cool.....