If it isn't one thing

it's a million others. i am not going to ask what else can go wrong, because it'll happen. granted i did get out of that hellhole, but i still have to hear shit from my sister. i hope she doesn't think i'm gonna say come stay with me, cause it ain't happening. it can't. oh and she tells me to stop telling her shit to my friends. well since a lot (or am i believing it's a lot cause i don't see my counter moving very fast LOL) of people read this they know her shit. so i won't go on with that. althoiugh she offers to take me to class today yet DOESN'T TAKE HER PHONE WITH HER. needless to say i didn't make it.

my place is a wreck because i havent' been able to organize everything. so far just the kitchen is about set up. still have to mop but waiting for the floor cleaning until i'm totally done. but this is last week of classes, final projects due. and what the fuck happens? yup, I HAVE TRANSPORTATION ISSUES. had a flat tire right in front of the class building. so i wait freakin 90 minutes for some damn dike to tell me my spare is dry rot and i don't have the right tools for the spare (which i did have she was probably just fuckin eyeballin me). so i'm cussing the ex out cause we had gone over my spare tire routine, although not well since the spare was bad and i had limited knowledge on changing a tire. hell i'd rather have someone do it but i guess i could have tried, but then again it wouldn't have worked. so i get a tow and it gets plugged. thank god i made it back to my one teacher because i totally forgot to put my final portfolio together and it HAD to be turned in THAT DAY. nice of him to tell me he saw me with the tow truck out front. least he knows i ain't lying. he knows most of my situation, he probably thinks i'm a damn fool. but least i'm not lying about why i haven't turned in a project and my final. hopefully that won't hurt me. i've been doing so well considering my damn problems. SO needless to say i had missed my next class and have yet to hear from the professor on IF i can even turn in my project for that class that was due that day as well. then today i get up and the plugged tire is flat again. fucktards. sooooo i get another tow from the beach to a shop in town since i don't trust these little places. only $27 tow thank god for AAA even though you have to wait all fucking day. he probably was trying to pick me up but, uh i don't think so. then i spend most of my day waiting for two new expensive tires. but there was a nice guy in there i was chatting up haha! country boy, but he had a cool truck so we were talkin truck shit, what i wanted to get done and he gave me a name of a shop he trusts for transmission since i was talkin about em. he probably thought i was a fuckin fruitcake too LOL. i thought about givin him my number since we had determined our 'status'. i just love inserting ways into my conversation of finding out single/divorced/girlfriend/kid/job/vehicle status. those things are important LOL. but i left with only the number of the transmission shop. i don't want anyone involved in my drama. although it would be nice to have someone i can call down here. it so sucks getting stranded and not knowing a soul. o sure i have my sister, but uh, not a reliable resource. how do you just throw your number into a conversation anyway?? "o it was nice talkin to ya, let me know when you get your truck lifted and painted, i'd like to see it, give me a call sometime?" i am so not good at that shit. but anyway, i've just had a traumatic WEEK, day, two months whatever and i can't wait til the quarter is over.

i did get my loan money but after seeing my $400 phone bill, i really do need a job LOL. i told my friends NO MORE TALKING FOR HOURS!!!!!! my best friend is so bad at that and it takes another 30 minutes after you say "i need to go now" for her to actually get off the phone. i thought the bill was wrong but apparently not with almost 2000 minutes of yacking. needless to say i'm upgrading my plan.

i'm just waiting til the dam breaks. when will the waterfall happen? i had a few tears the other night but nothing to purge me of all the shit i've had go on. thank god my professor for today's class i missed allowed me to turn my final project in later today. i hope this doesn't hurt my grade, although my last project did, and i was told if we had an A after this final project we were exempt from the final.

i figured i'd lose some more weight but i don't think that's happening. my pants are snug and i'm not happy about it so i've decided to fast more often and to seriously cut down my food intake. once this quarter is over, i'm hoofing it to the beach, which is less than a mile away i found out and doesn't take long to get to walkin.

o what else. i don't know. i'm just drained. i'm on the verge of tears almost every day and just want to get this over with. i am making a website and the shit is not working right in this one class. i pay attention in class, one of the few while others are rudely checkin email and surfin the net, and i still can't get this shit down. man my brain doesn't work like it used to. takes me twice maybe three times as long to remember this stuff and study and do homework. i'm especially slow in drawing, but that's the way i work. and it turns out alright. i hope to get photos and maybe post em. i don't know. i'm just tired. o i'm trying to save up all my sodas from wendy's so i can try to get me enough cups to get a free (supposedly) round trip ticket somewhere. hehe.

i won't feel settled until i get the dog back to my parents, my shit is totally out of my sister's boyfriend's house or whatever (o speaking of, he is soooooooo responsible and throws that he pays all the bills in my sister's face, let me tell you, he is behind on the mortgage, his phone and gas which was already turned off before. he's heading for foreclosure if he doesn't get caught up, yet he goes out blowing his money on alcohol, which is a minimum of a six pack, i've seen the receipts, poker, and restaurants, nice responsible guy for ya i' tell ya). when i get my own place straightened up and get some kind of part time work or temporary work then i will feel a little better.

wow i'm not sure this is cohesive but it's my outlet and as little as i get on. i sure hope i get my shit done........and my baby holds up for me..........