State of Affairs

I was hot today. Not hot as in HOT sweaty hot (sorry Y) but HOT as in ANGRY.

I had my appointment for food stamps. Almost on the way to getting them I think until she asks me if I'm a student. And of course I blurt out yes without thinking. Well apparently I HAVE to work 20 hours a week if I'm a student. And I don't work that much.

This might be my most prejudice post. And if I offend anyone, well I'm not sorry. But I can only voice MY observations. Is it because I'm a white, single, American that I cannot get some assistance in living? Some help in at least paying for groceries? I cannot get Medicaid because I am not disabled or have children (and I truly refuse to pop out a kid just to get government aid). I cannot get food stamps because I am a student who MUST work 20 hours a week. Plus I would only be able to get food stamps for three months ONLY in a 36 month period. So even if I did get the help, I couldn't get it again for another three years.

So.......how are these people getting government assistance? If I was a foreigner they would be throwing money at me. On the applications to get assistance, I could get it right away if I was a migrant worker.

I have worked since I was 16 years old. I have been paying taxes since then. So.......why can't I get some of my taxes back in government aid for a little while????

Basically I think it comes down to this:

LYING.

Granted, I will give you the fact that the ones with children or are disabled need the assistance. But these people keep popping out kids and keep getting aid. Plus, they certainly do know how to dress in brand names. Plus, a lot of them certainly are eating quite well (obese or getting there, even their kids). I'm not trying to say all of them, but the ones I saw in the offices, the ones I know about.

I'm pissed now. Well I was seriously pissed earlier but now I'm better. So I have to decide if I want to get food stamps for three months, if all the fucking paperwork is even worth it. Probably not. I also was thinking about writing a letter to my congressman. And it wasn't going to be politically correct.

I'm an American and I can't even get government aid. I was born in Pennsylvania. I have worked hard since I was a teenager.

I don't want to live off the government forever.

I have paid taxes like a good little citizen. Even if I thought about cheating I didn't.

I pay full price for shit not worth the price.

I gave what little money I had after paying my bills to a charity or two at least once a year.

I obey most of the laws the government has written.

I don't take what I don't earn.

I don't ask for things I haven't earned.

I'm American-born and I can't use the programs that I have paid taxes into for 21 years.

THAT"S fucked up.

So I asked my "case manager" if I was a different color would I get aid. She didn't like that question (she was BLACK - NOT AFRICAN AMERICAN). I asked if she would also treat me different because I felt like she thought I was lying about my income when it was right in front of her face in black and white yet she couldn't seem to read my pay stubs. I asked her if she would have answered the phone with a "minority" in her office, because I thought it was rude that she took a call while we were in the middle of this shit. I told her I couldn't afford my rent so I would probably have to live out of my truck soon. I told her that I probably won't be able to eat but then again I would lose weight so that was a plus. I asked what other people do to get aid, because I needed to know so I could do it. Then I told her that I figured she didn't care what I said because she probably heard this shit all day. I said it all in a nice way, hey I even said it with a tear in my eye cause I was feelin in the moment.

Then I took all my paperwork and left.

So that was a wasted ass trip.