Bleh

bleh bleh bleh

that's how i'm feeling of late.

i misinterpreted my school information and thought i only had one more class to go. When in actuality, I have two. Three technically if I want to graduate with a minor as well. But no way that's happening. Only one class away from that but I cannot afford it. Again, I'll be in debt til I'm six feet under. Actually I am requesting cremation but you get the point.

Which means I've got to charge it. Which means I will be in among those tons of other people who are in major credit card debt.

Bankruptcy may be an option......do I want to go seven years with that on my record? I would definately go cash.......I don't need stinkin credit.......I have had enough of the temptations. I've done ok but then I get that wild hair up my ass and decide I need to have things........usually they are photographic in nature.........

Photography is my addiction.......guess it could be worse........

Now that mid-term is over........I have to figure out more still lifes and portraits to shoot........getting ideas......now just need the people.

Irritated too......so I isolate myself. I did get to the gym last week, although I wanted to cop out on Thursday and my new gym buddy wouldn't let me. So now I feel good about going. Trying to make it three times next week. Also the beach and my bike too.

Sister agitating me.....I request her presence for photos and then I hear nothing. "Yea sure". Then when I ask for a day and time she can't do it. Well that's because she's out spending money she complains she never has.........plus she sent Mo off with a friend to go to Six Flags, then wonders if she's a bad mom for letting her go without her. Um, I'm so tired of hearing "the bad mom" thing. She does it for everything she decides.

My friend used me as a reference without my knowledge. So of course I don't answer the call. Luckily he left a message. I did call back but no return call. Although I do keep getting an unknown call like five times a day. Leave a message ASSHOLE. It's either a bill collector (I'm on time and current so I doubt it), or the trade magazine that I requested a free subscription.....can't think of anything else. I tried calling back but I can't since it's "unknown". I answered it but then don't get anything for like 15 seconds. I don't have time to waste so I'm thinkin its' automated........

I'm beginning to doubt myself though too......wondering if I will be able to make this photography an actual career.........

I'm going to bed.