Havin a low-confidence moment

It wasn't a great day today. Well it started out good, since my first class project was postponed. And the final draft for my resume was also moved up (I got a freakin C on it, WTF).

But for my Studio II class, my day went downhill. For one thing, I was supposed to shoot my still life today (reverse engineering the lighting scenario in the tear sheets we found). Well the lighting situation was MUCH harder than expected. What I thought would take an hour took the full class and I still didn't get it right. Secondly, my assistant was me and I was him. I was acting as the assistant. I guess because I wanted to do the stuff I needed to do, but I am supposed to tell HIM what to do with the lighting so I can make sure the lighting is right. But the professor had to help us because we weren't getting it like the ad. I felt like a failure tonight. Then again I felt rushed too. He (the professor) wants us to get the "money shot" in as little time as possible. You know, we don't want to spend the clients money when we don't have to. But it took too long. I think we have it. I just have to shoot it with a different camera.

And now I'm questioning my abilities to be a proper photographer. I am having trouble figuring out my scene and telling my 'assistant' what to do.

Maybe I'm just off today.