Not AS funky in Funky Town

well things are going much better. one because i was able to vent. two the transmission is fine. i was just upset because G-man got on me, but he really shouldn't have. we checked it while it was running yet before i had driven it anywhere. granted i did add a little more today because when it's running cool, the liquid on the stick doesn't fall in between the two marks. but after i had it running hot today and checked it, had plenty of fluid. it just freaks me out because this is my only set of wheels, and i don't have the money to get something major like that fixed. G-man and I did talk because he spoke to me like i don't take care of this vehicle, and he knows i do. so we got it straight. of course he was fucking drunk so he probably won't even remember this conversation. the entire time he was looking over the truck he was harping on it. well tell me once or twice but don't keep the shit going. that just makes me angry and then upset, which i was when i left. he says he is supportive of me but sometimes he acts like his father did with him: kept being negative and harping on shit. so i just made him aware he tends to act like his father and if he wanted to be supportive he should realize when he's being negative and stop for a minute. at least he's willing to listen. i know i come with my own issues and i am not always willing to admit them. but i think communication is a big factor in relationship problems and he at least is more willing to talk about things now than he had before. so that's progress.

now if i can just relax about this photo class. a part of me just is shutting down, not wanting to do a damn thing. and all this business shit in photography is not fun. it's taking the fun out of it for me. i know, i know. work isn't supposed to be fun. but i want to enjoy my work and i'm losing the enjoyment in photography. part of it is me. i'm getting too worked up about it. maybe once the "required" shit is done with i can actually enjoy photography again. i hope so because i don't want this to be a damn waste of my time......

fuuuuuuck

my truck insurance information didn't come to my address. the fuckers have my changed address, even sent me a card saying "if this is your new address you don't need to do anything." damn it.