Am I Here?

Because I feel like I'm not. I mean, it seems I am the last to know anything at work lately or stumble on something that I really should know about, except the Iam the only one getting a talking-to because picture taking is down at the hospital (I'm not the only one who's number of photos are down but I seem to be the one who is getting 'the talk). My sales are higher than last year's but apparently that doesn't matter. Well to ME it does as that is what I get paid on, not for photos people don't end up buying, and they DON"T. If someone doesn't buy while I am there, they won't when they go home. Yes, I try to get the sale before I leave but when someone says "you can take the picture but i'm not going to get anything", I realize there is no use in attempting to try to get the sale. I do show them how a photo will look in the end and try, but I'[m not pushy. Maybe that's my problem. I'm no salesperson. I don't like it. Well, hopefully I will have another job soon so I won't have to worry about this one. Granted, I'm thankful I HAVE a job, but I am not liking it like I used to.