Update

I need to think of some better titles. "Update" just kinda sucks.

Anyway, the old man went to the hospital yesterday for chest pains. They kept him overnight. Convenient that I work at the same hospital, just had to go to a different "tower". I'm totally exhausted. Working every day on my feet constantly and only making a pittance and to top it off I could not sleep until 5am this morning only to have to get up for work around 7am. I'm beat.

I bring him back today, been taking care of the dog.

DIdn't want to deal with my old lady, because as is typical she was wasted. And to top it off, she was whining for 30 minutes about how the cat scratched her arm up when the ambulance came. She picked up the cat the wrong way. That was taken over by the fact that she couldn't find the spinach dip. She was incessant. I understand she's worried about my dad. But enough with the spinach dip already!! I found it in the cabinet she looked in several times. The label wasn't facing front. That helps when a drunk person is looking for something specific.

I did send out a few resumes last night. But I have to seriously change my resume this week. I kept looking for photo jobs and I just feel deflated after looking at the things. I don't have the confidence in my abilities anymore, or rather lately. I just need to get out there and practice. When people ask me what I want to do I honestly don't know. I know I want to take pictures. It doesn't go beyond that right yet. I know it needs to. Wish I was one of those Type A personality people -- driven and ambitious and shit. That is so not me. Anyway, I was looking at photographer websites. Damn this one around my area charges up to and over $4000 for the top package! She must make a killing!! But I really don't want to do weddings. I don't have the right equipment for one thing. *shrug* I'm working on it.

I am debating on what I should purchase next though. A better camera? Like the 5D by Canon?? Or a new lens first? A better flash instead? I dont' know. I know I am going to need to upgrade to a minimum of 10 megapixels. The 10D works for me just fine for now. I also know I need better lenses. At the minimum one wide-angle zoom and a telephoto. The one I have is not a Canon brand and doesn't work with the digital. I also know I will need a better flash. The one I have was a cheap one I used for the film cameras. I'm good with available light for now but eventually I need to practice my flash photography for some awesome photos. There are of course tons more things I would like to get -- a strobe kit, lighting accessories, better tripod, better photo printer (minimum of $500), a desktop MAC, etc. So many things to do........

Ok my internet keeps going out so I best get off here for now.