Am I here?

Ok. Whew I thought maybe my lack of posting meant the Powers THat Be deleted me blog. I couldn't even comment on anyone's, so I was commenting for those who have those spy trackers. I wasn't being a voyeur I promise!

Well, I'm having a shitty month. I'm feeling desperate. I think the company is working towards getting rid of me. Now I do want to leave, but of course on MY terms. Like my term of having another job before I go. Granted I hate working here (I love what I do, but I hate the company now that it's changed so much, I could go on.......), but like I said I want to leave on my terms. But I believe because I'm being such a pain in their side, they want me gone. Why do I say that? Well for one thing the hospital needs two people to photograph every day. We have four people right now. She wants to hire three more. Um, we don't need THREE more people. We barely have enough days to make any money as it is. So where does she intend to put three new people on the schedule?? She told the newest girl she isn't looking for photographers, but salespeople. Well I know all this is Greek to you all because you aren't getting the full information, but in short, the hospital I work, the nurses don't like us here. THey think our company is putting too much pressure on moms to buy photos (and I kind of agree, but I don't pressure anyone, a no is a no to me, I'd suck at a real sales job). THey think it's all a marketing ploy. And in fact it is. Even though some moms don't get photos done, the company has their name, and information, and send them stuff. THen they sell the names to other companies so THEY can send them more junk. I don't agree with that business. Even some moms have said they are tired of all the marketing done at the hospital. So I don't pressure anyone at all. We have things to say to counter all the reasons they don't want photos. Sorry, I don't counter. IF they don't want 'em, I am gone.

Anyway, I'm getting anxious that I"m going to get the boot before I have a chance to find a job. Companies don't like people who speak out.......

Maybe more later..........I've got to pee as usual........and finish up my game ^heh^