Better days

WEll today was a little better. Nice to have some nice people to work with, and it was a beautiful day so i had lunch in the back of my truck while i pathetically tried to study a several millenia of CHinese art history for a test today. I'm still disturbed about the dating business, and he sent me an email which i think i will let sit in my inbox until i feel good and ready to read it. i suppose asking for communication and honesty is too much to ask. really. i'm a big girl, i can handle it, if it's all up front and out in the open. wanna fuck around a while? fine dandy. i'm all for it. get the schematics out of the way so i don't have to start opening my heart in case i got to likin ya. just don't sit there and tell me you aren't promiscuous, yet sleep with me, then others in between, your ex, then me again, and tell me she's back, and yet you don't sleep around? whatEVER dude. i've had friday nite sex-files nights with a guy in savannah (we'd watch the x-files then get it on and that was it no dates no foreplay well sexual just not dinner etc), well a little town outside savannah. granted i was also seeing his best friend (yet not sleeping with him, yea yea judge me if you want but he who casts the first stone, blah blah or however that goes). so it has happened, we met mutual needs, we were open and up front about it. we didn't want any other entanglements. although it was funny cause he was the first man i walked out on in the middle of the night cause his army issue bed was just TOO small for the both of us and he slept like a freakin burrito. have you ever tried to snuggle up to a burrito? so i left and he called me the next morning all kinda heartbroken cause i walked out in the middle of the night but we had a nice time for a while. i moved and he got stationed in germany. funny thing is the woman he had in germany, her name was the exact same as mine, so i'm like guess you won't forget about ME eh? hehe hell i thought guys did that all the time, left before dawn. *snicker* it was actually empowering lol. anyhow i'm really freakin digressing. let me read this and figure out what i was gonna say......*Tapping toes* oh anyway, i think i was just trying to say, that i'm an adult now. i don't need nor want the mind/emotional/head games. darts, billiards, yahtzee, scrabble, etc. those games i love they are fun a riot. but dont' play with my fucking head. and that includes friends. boy do i have a nice friend story. or ex-friend story. but that's for a nother day. was my savannah year. my blossoming year i like to call it. anyHOW i am so sorry i keep running off track, like a wheel that just keeps falling off the track and you have to put it back on to keep going LOL.

i guess the point is i am actually one of those women who can deal with the truth. granted if i don't like something i'll usually speak up, but my redheaded temper flares up when i'm screwed over. cause i am relatively easy to deal with. all ya gotta do is talk. anyhow i got plans to make. seattle is out. i am thinking maybe something tropical hehehe