Still Life

I know I'm in art school.

But I'm not actually the creative type.

I'm more.....analytical.....but without all the intelligence. Or maybe logical. I'm detailed and like to get things exact, right, perfect. I always colored within the lines and freaked out when I messed up. I use rulers to draw my lines or a straight edge. I used a compass or something to draw perfect circles. I like things very much ordered (although now you wouldn't be able to tell that since my place is a wreck). Some things I let go while others have to be a certain way.

That's why I chose photography out of all the art subjects. Photography is extremely technical. If the temperature isn't exactly right for the entire time for all the chemicals and water, then you can fuck up your development. Even a one degree change could fuck it up. But I like the technical stuff. I like that things have to be measured, temperature on the nose, a process and order to how to go from latent image to negative to print.

So when I have to come up with ideas for my projects, I get so anxious. I overthink. I agonize. And it's painful.

I have two more still lifes to do and it's agonizing. I did one already with my little teapot and cup (that are Japanese) with my bamboo breakfast tray and scroll. I have to reshoot it but it's going to look nice.

Now I have to figure out Still Life #2. We are using an RZ67
instead of a 4x5 view camera

I actually like that sucker up there ^^. The negative is awesome, much more detailed and crisper than a 35 mm. But as you can see it's large, and it comes with like a 50lb tripod, and it's time consuming. But those are similar to what some portrait studios use, the GOOD ones, not like walmart and shit.

Anyway, I have to come up with a more organic type of still life (objects that are more curvy versus rectilinear because the smaller camera can't compensate for perspective and anything linear will keystone). So I was thinking fruit. Fruit and flowers. I have to shoot more from above, like looking down on the table instead of shooting from the side which I sort of had done on the other one. Or marbles. I was thinking of doing like a monochromatic subject, like all cucumbers or all tomatos or something. That's all one color. THat would be cool I think.

Oy vey. Creativity is not my strong suit..........

HOly shit. These news shows are STILL Talking about Anna Nicole Smith???!!! Seriously. What has she done to help make a real, I mean REAL impact, on society that would require so many shows to be devoted to her? Seriously. Yes, she died and it is sad, but for MSNBC, CNN, E!, among other networks, to devote so much damn energy and press to a woman who spent most of her on-air life showing what an ass she can make of herself on drugs? Mother Teresa, I can see spending so much air time on. Wait, DID Mother Teresa even GET this much tv time? How about Princess Diana? What the.....*#$&#

Anyway, as far as Hallmark holidays go......

Happy Valentine's Day!