The steam is just seeping from my head

I know it is not my professor's fault that there are next to no working lights for our studio class.......

but don't hand me this 'real world bullshit' monologue. because if the college was 'the real world' i'd have my fucking tuition returned to me because you can't provide me with working equipment. or someone would hand me a different light kit without me having to fucking wait another week for it. not telling me to go to the home depot and 'redneck' some sort of lighting set up (i was goin to use the N word but god forbid i put that here). Excuse me? You want me to spend money that i don't have to put some half ass set up together? WHen i've paid close to three thousand dollars for this class to provide me with the equipment i need to get my "portfolio quality" photographs?

IDON'TFUCKINGTHINKSO.

What fucking world are YOU living in?

If you want me to be able to produce portfolio-quality fucking photographs then you provide me with the WORKING equipment to do it. If my grade suffers, oh you will hear from me........



This is what I had to hear from both my professor and the dumb-ass grad student monitor. That "this is preparing you for the real world and in the real world things don't always go as planned" No shit fucking REALLY???? I have been living in the real world longer than you've been born asshole......"In the real world equipment won't work and you have to make do, improvise." Ok in the real world ASSMUNCH I would get my money BACK and go somewhere else who had the equipment and would readily help me get what I needed for the shoot.

I am SOOOOOO tempted to write a damn letter to the president of the department, school, whoever I can send the fucking letter to.

Don't tell me about the real world. Professor T, you can't remember how to work half the equipment in our checkout studio........so what do you know about getting by in the 'real world' when you are supposedly trying to teach us about lighting techniques?

Shit I just missed who won Dancing With the freakin Stars.........

Kyle, when you have lived long enough out in the 'real world', THEN you can come and tell ME how it is in the real world, because what you have to say is totally useless to me. Oh yea, and when you get that silver spoon out of your mouth.

I could only laugh. I actually stood there laughing out loud while Kyle the shitbird monitor was relaying his 'real world' story. Rude? You bet. I already can't stand the guy and when he opens his mouth he makes it worse. Then the professor asks me if I want to yell at him. Or rather if any of the class wants to yell at him. I said "why bother complaining to you? I understand you trying to make this problem situation into a positive. You won't do anything about it. Why waste my breath?" I did have some suggestions but they've been given before. It's a whole bunch of bureaucratic shit to go through if anything is to change. I felt like asking him for a couple of thousand dollars back. I felt like telling him that I was angry and that they needed to let me be angry. Not try to fucking pacify me which makes me angrier. But I refrained. The kids were already freaking out when I was laughing over them talking.......

Half my shit is getting done and that's it. I should get a decent grade, if it's not, they will hear from me. I am not making excuses for my lack of some projects; I have REASONS why they were not done. THey can look up the damn difference in the dictionary. I'm not excusing my lack of finishing all the projects. I am actually about done. I only have a still life or two to shoot and scan a few negatives and I'm good to go. I am not waiting until the last minute like the rest of the class to finish their projects.........

Damn now I feel so much better that I could get that out.......